Monday, July 21, 2008 | 5:33 PM
i will suffer for so long,
to make it up to you.
i'll do whatever you want me to do,
and if its not enough,
i'll try again and again over and over again.
i'm feeling rather screwed.
i miss you more than usual,
it's been way too long uhh.
and with what you said earlier on,
i have to prepare myself.
for that month full of pureness.
and its during the exam time.
so we have everything in the world to gain.
and i can't seem to say what i really want to when i'm with you.
maybe its cos i finally realize something.
that nothing is going the way it should.
its a great thing i have you.
the rest of my life is in tatters.
the way i get blamed for everything.
by the people i never expected.
maybe you guys just cant get used to not having sis around.
but do i have to be your fucken punching bag?
move there and leave me here for all i care.
i'd be way better off i swear.
this is the part where i scream
,but i'm not gonna let this get so far.
i'll fight with these eyes closed,
to protect what i believe in.
and thinking over what has been happening,
it ain't surprising that things are like this.
ever since sis left,
you two started making it hell.
well done uhh.
your knight in shining armor, will make your dreams come true.
he's not quite as charming as he may seem.
i admit, i'm just a fool for you.
i tried making you two happy,
but it wasn't worth it.
i though it'd be easy.
fuck, i was wrong.
i'm trying to let you know,
i'm just fine.
you took whats left of me,
and threw it all away.
can you guys fucking think how it affects other people?
other than yourselves?
you guys don't make the fucking world turn.
think it over.till then,
i'm pretty much better now.
having gotten all these off my head.
but please, i've got my own views.
let me speak up for myself for once.
i already broke out of that shell,
even you would know.
hun, i love you laa.
we so have to hang out really soon!
after all the failed saturdays!
:D
